Wow. I am honestly a little surprised I have made it this far. I know a lot of this is thanks to blogging it. If not for the fact that I am sharing my experience with you, I might have given up by now. I know there is a very good chance I will not hit 50,000 words in the next week, but because I have pushed through, I will finish my story.
So, onto my progress over the last little while.
This last week/8 day period has been most likely the weirdest of the month. I have had sick kids, random inspectors, a power outage, late homework, Christmas shopping (I know it it early, but it has to be when you mail stuff out), and of course trying to be healthy and not go insane.
I have had the two worst days of the month, with 338 words on the 14th, and 330 words on the 16th. I have also had the two best days, with 3105 words on the 18th, and 3475 just last night on the 22nd. Overall, I think it balanced out to my average word count of around 1500-1700 words per day. It has taught me something important. Some days, you have to know it is better to step away from the keyboard and know that it will be all right. The writing wasn’t great on those days, I was exhausted, it just wasn’t good. Sure, sitting there anyway I did get something, but I also ended up feeling horrible because I didn’t get as much as I wanted to.
Oddly enough, I found my two really good days fascinating as well. Writing 3000+ words for me is pretty much unheard of, and ended up being most of my day. It’s not like I can’t write a lot at one time normally; I can sit down and write a few blog posts at once, or do a homework assignment, and crank out 5000 words in a couple of hours. But when I sit to write fiction, the words are much slower. I know how everything is supposed to go, but I don’t write it out quickly. I get distracted and wander around the house. I second guess almost every word. Basically, I am pitifully slow.
During this entire month, particularly as I started out a little behind, I have been pushing to hit 2000 words a day. It felt like if I could hit that, I would make it on time. (Officially I need 2227 everyday now to make it one time). So I pushed, trying to get as many words as possible each day. Most days, I crapped out around 1500-1800 words. A few times I made it to 1900 words. Every time I would stop. It would be late at night, I would be falling asleep, I just wouldn’t have anymore words in me. That would be it, I would be done.
However, the two days when I did hit 2000 words, I went beyond. I didn’t just hit my mark, I surpassed it by a lot. I can’t tell if I should feel like I am doing well when this happens. Yes, I am getting plenty of words, and doing better than I thought I could, but I am not hitting the goal I aimed for. Does hitting the goal matter when you are able to go much further?
I guess the answer is probably no, it doesn’t matter. I did what I set out to do, and hit my word count. Now, I need to stop talking, so I can go and do it again.
Happy writing! Let’s finish NaNoWriMo!